OH MY GLOBULAR WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!!! She was your mudder! How could you have done this! You monster! This is the woman who birthed you, fed you, raised you; kept you safe and warm. JIMINY CRICKET! How could you be such a horrific monster!?!?!? You fade off into the Cockroach created lucid state and seek back in your mind all that your mother did for you, in an attempt to come to terms with the type of irresponsible monster you are. She wrecked her vaginal canal and sacred titties for your existence!
Drifting back; you access some of the deepest, and most guarded memories stored within your subconscious. You are floating in a vat of warm juice. All is peaceful and serene until a slice of light appears above your head. The juice of life spills out as your feet are yanked up and into the awful world. Through the haze of embryonic fluid dripping from your nascent eyes, you can make out a giant gaping wound in a hill of matronly flesh. Oh.... so it was a C-section. She saved her putty on that one. Oh well...
The mind swims through the haze; giant balloons of life sustaining fat float above your head, but you can't seem to reach any of them.... the pair disappear into the haze and are replaced with a cold mechanical faucet. “This isn't milk!” you sputter, “This is some horrific chemical formula! Where will my immunity come from now!” You spit out the glucose laden poison and continue to drift through the fogs of long suppressed memory. Every time you attempt to reach out and grab hold of your mater, you reach yet another stranger. An endless string of baby sitters while your mom is suspiciously absent. Your flailing arms clear the fog, and you can see clearly now all the memories that weren't so well hidden. She was never there! Goddamnit! When she was, she was always berating you. You were such a disappointment. In every way, in every moment, she avoided your contact, or actively staved you off. The love you missed! No wonder you picked up such stupid morals and ideals from the television; it was the only parental figure in your life that truly cared. You know, what a fucking bitch! She never provided the love you needed to grow and mature into a fully functioning adult. It was all her fault all along! You know what, I bet she would have poisoned you had she had the chance. Ya, probably that could have happened. Fuck that shit! You go piss on her bones, because you've now become a mature, independent, self-actualized, prisoner for life. Enjoy the cell you poor hard done by baby!